Sometimes there’s just no winning. And they will say they understand. And sure they’ve been through something like it. But you didn’t fall for someone for 5 years for no good reason. Pointless feelings. Always pointless, optimism doesn’t win this battle.

It hurts to be heartbroken. It hurts even more when you feel like you have no right to be heeart broken.

I just feel like shit. My hands shake and my heart aches and I feel sick. My eyes feel heavy. I feel like I’ve been crying for hours. But I haven’t cried at all.