So update I have two cosplays I’m finishing up right now. But after those two, I’ll be working on my Astrid cosplay. It’s gonna be fun! I’m so excited!!!

I’m not crazy gorgeous but I will say puberty hit me like a brick. Anyone else?

my-many-muse-rp-blog:

Mun: so the top 3 are my non-OC muses and the bottom 3 are my OC muses, (images not mine) Daniel, Jinx, and Jackie

Here is the muse, post off my side blog. It’s an rp blog and I’m trying to get back into it. Hopefully someone(s) will be interested?

Don’t forget to follow my rp blog, if you rp. I’m getting back into and revamped my blog. So the link to the page and my muse post is up top.

my-many-muse-rp-blog:

Mun: so the top 3 are my non-OC muses and the bottom 3 are my OC muses, (images not mine) Daniel, Jinx, and Jackie

Here is the muse, post off my side blog. It’s an rp blog and I’m trying to get back into it. Hopefully someone(s) will be interested?

Lonely sometimes

I am very lonely sometimes.

At times I’m somewhat lonely.

Time like this I am lonely.

It takes some time.

Being lonesome happens.

And when I’m lonely sometimes like I am now, there’s nothing wrong. I’m just lonely shortly. Though I’d love some cuddles from time to time, so I’m reminded I’m not so lonely.

Can I just say, I make for a really hot hospital receptionist these days! Like I feel like I’m actually able to turn heads (which is always a great confidence booster),even if it’s just me in my own head!

Nothing is wrong in my life.

But for some reason my night are becoming more and more sleepless.

With each late afternoon the sleep deprivation settles back into my body like a well worn sweater.

It engulfs me ever so slowly and subtly, so when it fully has filled my body it’s too late to fix, caffeine won’t affect it.

My deprivation makes it hard to catch up.

It’s been three weeks or and I just can’t sleep, deep sleep.

And so the bags beneath my heavy silver eyes begin to change and speckle themselves with shades of yellow, lavender, and exhaustion.

I still can’t figure out why…..

Why?

For a third time in a row a date with a guy has been cancelled or they’ve flaked on me…..

Did I do something wrong? Am I just that…..I dunno how to even phrase it. Am I that unappealing?

I’m hurt and annoyed.

Body confidence day! I haven’t been able to hit the gym for a little bit cause of being sick. But like at the same time that is okay. I still think I’m beautiful I still think I kick ass. You don’t have to sell your souls to fitness to feel good about yourself. Sometimes you need to rest and recover and if you don’t your progress can be for nothing.

Moons

So happy new year!

I just have to say I think the moon cycle has really gotten me back in check, along with the new year.

With it going to be a Super Blue Blood Moon, I think everyone is on just another level.

Though in all seriousness I do find the whole so exciting, so enticing to think of. With the fact something like this hasn’t happened in years! I feel a boost and refresher in myself. I feel like my life has kind of smoothed away the chips and frustration from last year. I think the moon cycle is not just scientifically significant right now but I do think from a spiritual and metaphysical standpoint it’s also significant!

So all in all I think I shall take it as a sign to really maybe make the most of not just the new year but this month especially!