It’s a cool song I would recommend to people. Its also been stuck in my head hahaha!

Jenny, darling, you’re my best friend
But there’s a few things that you don’t know of
Why I borrow your lipstick so often
I’m using your shirt as a pillow case

I wanna ruin our friendship
We should be lovers instead
I don’t know how to say this
‘Cause you’re really my dearest friend

Jenny, darling, you’re my best friend
I’ve been doing bad things that you don’t know about
Stealing your stuff now and then
Nothing you’d miss but it means the world to me

I wanna ruin our friendship
We should be lovers instead
I don’t know how to say this
‘Cause you’re really my dearest friend
I wanna ruin our friendship
I don’t know how to say this
‘Cause you’re really my dearest friend

Jenny take my hand
‘Cause we are more than friends
I will follow you until the end
Jenny take my hand
I cannot pretend
Why I never like your new boyfriends

Oh, your love for them won’t last long
Forget those amigos
Oh, your love for them won’t last long
Forget those amigos
Forget those amigos

I wanna ruin our friendship
We should be lovers instead
I don’t know how to say this
‘Cause you’re really my dearest friend

Oh, your love for them won’t last long
We should be lovers instead
Oh, your love for them won’t last long
‘Cause you’re really my dearest friend

– Jenny by Studio Killers

I just want to push the frame of you against the wall. Let my lips leave marks on a canvas I’ve never touched. Make you my new art. My new view, so when I stare at anything, it could be you. But instead I’m gonna ignore it, and continue my other art. The art to help me go from the home that’s closing in front of our eyes. And it sucks…..but right now I wish we could be back to normal…I miss us as normal.

Strawberry pink (wild youth-berry orange) tea, to match Strawberry pink waves. ((Simultaneously I’m exhausted and feel like I’ve cried for days))

No plans to light it, never again will I but having it….it’s a reminder things get better. And you don’t have to be dependent on something so silly to get through it.

No alcohol and no way to get far enough away.

Once more maybe I’m supposed to be stuck in this shit. Maybe it’s telling me to go away. I’m better off other places anyways.

Either I’m drinking a lot tonight or I’m going for a drive where no one is going to find me. Goodnight to them.

I want to cry so hard but honestly I’m so conflicted, lost and drunk from my own emotions that I am some sort of numb…..almost immune to crying and that sucks"

A lonely, confused strawberry mermaid